Comfortably Numb
Two weeks ago at church we talked about embracing pain, and how it's good to name your feelings and all that. And I agree. But I feel like, at the moment, I'm all wrapped up in cotton wool and can't be disturbed by anything. Tonight's End of the World special on 20/20 would normally freak me out, yet talking about it today I couldn't summon the least little bit of anxiety. And the general things that make me sad, well, at the moment my psyche won't be bothered.
You might think this is good. No anxiety, no sadness, no angst. And I kind of like it, but it's a lot like the feeling I'd imagine you'd get on anti-depressants--which I am not on--comfortably numb.
That didn't stop me from singing along at the top of my lungs to Whitney Houston's version of "I Will Always Love You" on the way home from work today. I know that song is way over the top, and super-melodramatic, and yet it just seems perfectly appropriate and depressing on a gray day.
Other songs I enjoy on gray days:
"Early Morning Rain"--Gordon Lightfoot version
"I am a Rock"--Simon & Garfunkel
anything melancholy by the Carpenters, especially "Goodbye to Love" or "Rainy Days and Mondays"
any song by Patsy Cline, because they're all melancholy
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P.S. While we're on music, I promised mad props to whoever knew what song "in the grocery store" (my Saturday post title) came from.
And of course, my cousin Tim knew it. It's from that Dan Fogelberg song (yes, I'm a giant nerd) "Same Old Lang Syne." Now there's a great melancholy rain/snow song, but better when it's cold outside.
You might think this is good. No anxiety, no sadness, no angst. And I kind of like it, but it's a lot like the feeling I'd imagine you'd get on anti-depressants--which I am not on--comfortably numb.
That didn't stop me from singing along at the top of my lungs to Whitney Houston's version of "I Will Always Love You" on the way home from work today. I know that song is way over the top, and super-melodramatic, and yet it just seems perfectly appropriate and depressing on a gray day.
Other songs I enjoy on gray days:
"Early Morning Rain"--Gordon Lightfoot version
"I am a Rock"--Simon & Garfunkel
anything melancholy by the Carpenters, especially "Goodbye to Love" or "Rainy Days and Mondays"
any song by Patsy Cline, because they're all melancholy
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P.S. While we're on music, I promised mad props to whoever knew what song "in the grocery store" (my Saturday post title) came from.
And of course, my cousin Tim knew it. It's from that Dan Fogelberg song (yes, I'm a giant nerd) "Same Old Lang Syne." Now there's a great melancholy rain/snow song, but better when it's cold outside.
posted by Melanie at 5:46 PM
