Resignation Anxiety
I don’t know if there is an official name for this, but there should be. The feeling of dread that comes with knowing that you’re about to hand your completely unsuspecting boss your resignation. At a bad time of year. I really am dreading this, and when I dread things, I tend to avoid them.
But I have already accepted another job. And I dread losing that more than I dread handing in the resignation. So I will do it tomorrow. I will!
The new job is exciting. I’m going to be a copywriter. I’m going to be employed in a profession that uses “writer” in the title! I’ll be making more money, and working with actual people, including a good friend, who is responsible for most of this. At least for telling me about it, and making sure my non-writer resume didn’t get ignored. And he’s going to be my supervisor, which is funny and awesome.
It’s all very surreal, still. I hadn’t been thinking about leaving my job until this new opportunity popped up, and all along I’ve been telling myself I wasn’t going to get it. So I haven’t gone through any kind of closure. Haven’t even been imagining a last day, or what I’ll need to do before I go.
That will start tomorrow.
And, I’m back from Las Vegas.
Bellagio and Caesar's Palace
Gambled very little, and as a result, lost very little. I did accept my job by cell phone at Caesar's Palace. And I learned how to play Pai Gow poker, which makes me feel that I know at least a little. I’m disappointed that I didn’t learn craps, just because I want to roll the dice down the table and get high fives from everyone, but that shit is complicated. I understand more than I did, at least.
The main reason that I went to Vegas, and the reason my family was there (other than to gamble, which most of them love), was because my sister-in-law was singing with this band at the Bellagio hotel. She sang with the band on Saturday night, and it was totally awesome. She rocks. And she got invited back anytime, and to possibly sit in when the lead singer (who she met while doing hurricane relief in Mississippi) goes on vacation.
Katie rocks it out with Isis
Anyway, good times. Some more pics on Flickr.
I’m totally screwed up, timewise. I felt relieved coming home today. I’m such an east coast girl. And I realized that one of the things I love is the time zone. I just don’t like that there are people in the US, family and friends, who are awake and experiencing the day before I am. I want to be first! First, I say! I hate being the last to know anything. Even if it’s just a day of the week. I want to be first to experience Sunday!
And, yes, I am a bit nuts.
But I have already accepted another job. And I dread losing that more than I dread handing in the resignation. So I will do it tomorrow. I will!
The new job is exciting. I’m going to be a copywriter. I’m going to be employed in a profession that uses “writer” in the title! I’ll be making more money, and working with actual people, including a good friend, who is responsible for most of this. At least for telling me about it, and making sure my non-writer resume didn’t get ignored. And he’s going to be my supervisor, which is funny and awesome.
It’s all very surreal, still. I hadn’t been thinking about leaving my job until this new opportunity popped up, and all along I’ve been telling myself I wasn’t going to get it. So I haven’t gone through any kind of closure. Haven’t even been imagining a last day, or what I’ll need to do before I go.
That will start tomorrow.
And, I’m back from Las Vegas.
Bellagio and Caesar's Palace
Gambled very little, and as a result, lost very little. I did accept my job by cell phone at Caesar's Palace. And I learned how to play Pai Gow poker, which makes me feel that I know at least a little. I’m disappointed that I didn’t learn craps, just because I want to roll the dice down the table and get high fives from everyone, but that shit is complicated. I understand more than I did, at least.
The main reason that I went to Vegas, and the reason my family was there (other than to gamble, which most of them love), was because my sister-in-law was singing with this band at the Bellagio hotel. She sang with the band on Saturday night, and it was totally awesome. She rocks. And she got invited back anytime, and to possibly sit in when the lead singer (who she met while doing hurricane relief in Mississippi) goes on vacation.
Katie rocks it out with Isis
Anyway, good times. Some more pics on Flickr.
I’m totally screwed up, timewise. I felt relieved coming home today. I’m such an east coast girl. And I realized that one of the things I love is the time zone. I just don’t like that there are people in the US, family and friends, who are awake and experiencing the day before I am. I want to be first! First, I say! I hate being the last to know anything. Even if it’s just a day of the week. I want to be first to experience Sunday!
And, yes, I am a bit nuts.
posted by Melanie at 10:05 PM
